Bullying...

So I know everyone who has a blog has some type of blog about bullying... welp... here is mine. I've been bullied since I was very young, about 4th grade. I developed MUCH faster than most girls and was out of training bra and into a real B-cup sized bra at that age, plus I started menstruating... I know that's TMI. I also started to gain weight, I was always super thin up until that point and then I just started to put on weight, a little at a time but over the years it got worse and as girls caught up in development and my growth stopped ( I was also the tallest girl in my class until about 6th grade) and other girls caught up to me, the bullying got worse, I would be told things like "You're so fat that your bra just squeezes it together and makes you look like you have boobs" or "You HAVE to stuff your bra" or "You're a fat ass", etc. Kids were awful to me and it got worse the older I got, when I started to like boys well my weight was no help, other skinny little girls had boyfriends (looking back now I know that young it shouldn't matter) and I was also just the one who never really went to the cool places to hang out or had very many friends. I began to be very introverted and I learned very quickly to work on my own and I still to this day would rather work on my own than in a group of people.
As I got older it continued to get worse kids would make whale noises as I walked by or elephant noises or boom sounds as I stepped or would push/shove me etc. So for the longest time I was a bully, I had a specific group of friends all who were inferior to me in one way or another and I was pretty much in charge and I loved that. I loved knowing that these people wouldn't make fun of me etc. I eventually stopped and just learned to deal with it and I've become a strong woman today because what I've been through, now I NEVER go out of my way to hurt someone's feelings or be rude to someone, there are people I don't get along with of course. I used to be super quite so I'm pretty much the opposite of how I was then. I'm loud, opinionated and I really don't care what anyone has to say about it. I'm a strong minded, strong willed woman who won't settle for less than she deserves, but I am still bullied and left out by my group of people. I mean I love them but now I pay no mind to it so yeah. I do stand up for myself. If they give me attitude or are rude to me and I can tell they are trying to be rude, I snap back at them and It's funny when I see the look on their face but anyway, yeah bullying sucks... seriously... it caused major depression for me and a long time for me to even like myself and I'm still working on me.... So yeah...
-Kaylan

News!

Hey ya'll!
So I have some news, well a couple different things actually! I found out I'm moving! Holy crap and very soon, I'm not going to disclose the location, for two reasons; 1) It's not official and 2) This IS the internet!
Well school is great, I'm passing all my classes and have all good grades, nothing below an 85! I'm gonna be a very busy girl soon! I have three weeks of school left before we PCS, (Don't ask) and then I'll be back stateside! Woohoo! I also have some other news, I have a new/old flame back in my life. We had a thing a while back and we recently reconnected and we pretty much picked up where we left off, it's great so far and I'm excited to see where it goes! Hmm, like I said I'm going to be super busy here soon, so I will update if I can and I'm not sure how long it will be till I have net once I am back stateside but I'll try to update as much as possible. That's all for now! I hope everyone's Thanksgiving was great! Mine was awesome!
Have a good day/night!
-Kaylan

Quick Update!

Nothing bad! My grades are good, I got the final ones for this quarter but I am not going to share until the end of the semester! Eddie and I broke up but it was for the better with the issues we were having, but were still friends and will talk again when there is no weirdness, it's been about 4 days so there is still awkwardness but I'm not sad, so no worries. I broke it off with him, but I really don't wanna get into it any deeper. School is going great though, I feel like I'm finally getting the handle on things! I just hope it stays that way when I move. I started going through my room today and got rid of A LOT, but hey it had to go! Anyway, It's 11:30 here and I've gotta get to bed! So have a nice night/day ya'll!
-Kaylan

So..It's been a while!

Hey Guys!
I'm sorry it's been so long! I've been going through a lot lately with school and Eddie and I found out I'm moving in January (Gotta love the Army) and just a bunch of stuff. Well, school has been alright for the most part, I've got a few people mad at me because I finally opened my mouth and told them to put it where the "son don't shine" as we say in the South---anyway, Eddie and I have been having issues but you can read about that on my other blog, and the link will be somewhere in here and that post should be up either tonight or tomorrow. My grades have been not so good but I suppose that is because of the stress I've been under but now that I know I am moving I really can not afford to loose any credits I have or to fail a class, I'll be able to graduate either way but I just wanna graduate with more credits than I actually need! Hmm, what else... My parents and I have not been getting along because they have no respect for anyone's ears and lord forbid I bring it up! I mean, damn shut the fuck up when you're doing that! Sorry for the language but damn, it pisses me off. Anyway.... hmmm I found out where I am moving also but I am not going to share that until it is official! well I can't really think of much else to update ya'll on!
Have a great day/night!
-Kaylan(:

S.A.T Tomorrow...

Hey ya'll!

So I am coming to you tonight from a bit of a different place. I am currently babysitting but Kash (his nickname) is sleeping and his parents aren't due home for another couple of hours. He has been good and the two little girls I had earlier were both really good also so I am not complaining.

Anyway, so the S.A.T is tomorrow and I am honestly not that nervous about it, though I am sure I will be in the morning. I have to be at the school by 7:55 am because the doors close and lock at 8:00 am so I have to get up at the normal time I would get up for school so I am super happy that it is a 4 day! I am sure I will do very well on the English part as I have never really had a hard time with writing and comprehending things. Math on the other hand is a totally different story! I am terrified but I know I have the ability to do well, so I am not going to go in there thinking; "I'm going to fail. The math is going to be so hard!" because that would be siking myself out and honestly I can't really afford to do that!
I will blog tomorrow and let you know how that goes and maybe I will also be able to go the mall and find out what my parents want me to pick out tomorrow, they did not promise but they said they would try so who knows!
Well have a wonderful night/evening/afternoon/ morning!
-Kaylan

4 day weekend!

Hey ya'll!
So like the title says I have a 4 day weekend this weekend and I am super stoked about it. I originally had other plans for Eddie to come down but you can read more about that on my other blog, Grunt's Girl! So go check that out! It's still in the starting stages but I am loving it so far.
I am not sure what I have planned for this weekend, well I do know that tomorrow, Friday, I have to work from 5pm to 12am and then I have to be up by about 6:30 am the next day so I can go to take the SATs. That is going to be quite the long test but hey, I have to do it so I am not gonna be sad about it. I don't know what plans I have after though, I am maybe going to go downtown and do some shopping now that I actually have some money, or maybe some shopping at the PX here on post, because I do need jeans seeing as it's October and I have one pair. It's not exactly short weather!
My quiz in anatomy today went well and I got 15.5 out of 20 possible points so I didn't do all that bad I suppose. My grade is almost an 80! I also am bringing up my art grade, which happens a little bit slower but it will happen and the rest are As and Bs so I am not to worried!
I sat with my friends who I sat with last year today, it was nice to sit with people who don't have drama in their life. I love Kayla, my best friend, there is no doubt about that but people these days seem to always have drama and I just don't understand it I suppose. I have never been one to have drama but I guess that's because I see no point in it, it's just a time waster! Anyway I am done rambling ya'll have a wonderful day/night/evening/afternoon/morning!
-Kaylan

P.S- Senior pictures are on the 15th!

School, Birthday, and More!

Hey everyone,
     So it's been a while since I've done an actual school update. I have been super busy with Eddie, I turned 18 and a bunch of other stuff. I suppose I'll just summarize my birthday; I had a great time, He and I went downtown and had a "date", even if my parents did ambush it. We went around downtown shopping and I bought a few things I liked. We came back and Kayla, who is my best friend, came over and brought Sophia Brookelynn, her baby girl, and I got to play with the baby and tend to her and see her for a little while. We did cake and I got 4 pairs of toe socks, I believe, it may have been three, and I got some fake diamonds from my parents as a joke, I have a bigger present but they said we have to go to the mall and I can pick it out. Eddie got me a beautiful ring and my grandfather gave me 100 dollars, Oh! Also, Kayla got me two perfumes and a 25$ gift card. We roasted weenies and did smores and we just had a good time.
On to school! It's been good for the most part, I've been a little stressed between my anatomy and my art class as I am not the most artistic person but I will live. I am trying not to stress so much and just do my best and know that there is nothing more I can do really. All the rest of my grades though are 85s and higher so that is something to be happy about.
I also started another journal, which makes three but I think I can handle it. I don't write in them everyday but maybe I should. I am also considering starting a new blog and blogging about being an Army Girlfriend and the journey I am about to take with my solider and this deployment so look out for that! The link will be somewhere on here once it is up running and that will be in a few days more than likely.
Other than that, I've been doing alright, I don't have anything really awful happening so it could be worse but as for you all; I hope you are doing well!
Have a wonderful night/day/morning/afternoon!
-Kaylan

School, Hair, Journaling, Grades...Oh and readers?

School has been really good and I am SO thankful for that. I deserve it after everything I've been through in the last three years.  I will post a picture of my new hair in the blog because I promised I would and never did but hey I am keeping it now so please don't be mad! I've been journaling on top of blogging now, with the suggestion of my mamma. She wants me to have a "written" copy to go back and look on and maybe one day my future kids can read it and it can help them. I really like that idea but then again I am a bit of a sap so hey; why wouldn't I. I've also been learning to play the guitar and while it hurts I am getting pretty good! I checked my gradespeed today and I have all A+s! I know it's only the second week but hey; I am starting now. Oh!!! I have to sign up for my SATs tomorrow! I am kinda...not okay with that. I turn 18 in 25 days and I am graduating this year, I am looking into living areas around the school I want to attend. It just is such a dream still that it doesn't seem real that in 9ish months I will be living on my own and working to become a productive member of a "global" society or at least as my school calls it. I wanted to ask you if I have any readers and if I do please leave a comment or something so that I know and if you could get your friends to read it. I don't wanna be internet famous but I'd like to know if this blog is reaching someone haha!
Anyway I hope ya'll have a good day/evening/night!
-Kaylan

First Day!

Today was the first day of senior year! It was amazing and I hope the rest of the year is like that!! I can not wait to see what this year has in store. I hope this year is filled with loves, laughs, friends, sports, dances but most importantly I hope that it is just fun(:  Have a good day/night everyone!
-Kaylan

Senior Schedule(:

Today I got my last high school class schedule! I remember starting freshmen year this time of the year and thinking that high school would be the longest, most dreaded, awful part of my life. I really have seen it just fly by! I look at my yearbook from then and go "Where did the time go?!" It's so insane to me that this is my last year of high school. I am so excited to have this year start though. It starts on Monday the 27th and I go get my hair done tomorrow the 25th(: I'll blog and post a picture! So without further ado; here is my senior schedule!

Senior Schedule! 
A1) Discrete Math- Jordan 
A2) Language Arts 12- Cyphers
A3)Geometry (First Semester only)- Romweber
A4) German III- Helm
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B1) Semester 1) Guitar 1 Semester 2) Computer Music 
B2) Studio Art- Cannon
B3) Human Anatomy&Phys- Jones 
B4) Seminar- Romweber


"Always shoot for the moon, even if you miss you'll land among the stars" <3
-Kaylan